As the world turns we constantly have to make changes. My love, my life my well being will safely be in the hands of another. How will I ever deal with the loss of self. How will I deal with the inability to make changes alone, by myself, without the influence of others? How will I learn to be a new person?
For me my faith in God will walk me through the darkness that I know see. I know that God will lead me through the late night troubles, through the early morning pains and through the day long confusion. I know this process is long and the path to get to the end even longer. But, I know that with God by my side I will survive. I know that by my love by my side she will help me stay alive. I know the process is not easy, but I am committed to the end. I am committed to life with my new best friend.
It is easy to say these things and smile but when the smiles turn to tears the days into nights the tired felling must turn to strength. I know I need to become more physically strong, mentally awake and morally straight and I know this will take time. So now I look to my friends, my foes and those who will guide and mentor me from day 1 until the end. This process of wedding planning is simply training. Training for the days to come. Training for the midnight runs.
I take up this challenge with open arms and an open mind. Many say marriage is crazy and not for the faint of heart. I pray my heart is strong and my will everlasting because I am in 100% until the end.